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Relationship Assessment Day

Wednesday, February 14th, 2007

I am thankful, in light of the date, that I do not have an ex-, and that I am free to come, and go, and live and work, following only the will of God, and not having to have every plan altered by the calculation of it’s effect on my significant other. I do realize thet that extra planning would be a joy, but I rejoice in the uncomplexity of my current life. When the rich, young ruler came to Jesus, He didn’t say “One thing you lack, go sell your possessions and buy an engagement ring and some chocolate…”

Luck

Monday, February 5th, 2007

When people use the word “Luck” they mean lots of different things. One use is an arbitrary, chance-based idea of randomness. “You just got lucky!” they say, as you sink a three-pointer blindfolded. This is one way of saying, “Brownian movement and undefinable chaotic processes caused your results to fall several standard deviations from the center of the maxwell curve!” Another way that the word is used is to mean a points system that gets used up by preferred things happening–or is just measured by happy things happening. “Today is my lucky day! I think I’ll go buy some lottery tickets!” Maybe it’s based on what you do–like karma. “See a penny, pick it up, all the day you’ll have good luck.” People also refer to luck as the reasoning behind some complex set of cause-and-effect circumstances. “It’s bad luck to break a mirror, spill salt, juggle chainsaws, etc.”
Most of the time that Luck is invoked, it is in a way that totally ignores God’s role in our everyday lives. Now, granted, there is a lot that happens that doesn’t seem to have God’s direct, obvious input. It seems that God has set up the world to operate in certain non-deterministic ways. Your Statistics teacher would get annoyed if his sample of random coin tosses wasn’t a normal distribution of heads and tails, but God could intervene in the world that way if He wanted to. And He does intervene sometimes, and we call that a miracle—sometimes what we see is as simple as something other than the most likely thing happening.
Sometimes we think of a system of points, where you rack up luck, and then good things happen to you, or you don’t have luck, and then bad things happen to you. This is an abdication of personal responsibility for the consequences of our actions (we blame it on some undefinable “bad luck”) but it also forgets that God can rework how what we do effects what happens to us. Often God does this by changing something bad in a short-term, temporal sense, into a blessing in a more long-lasting sense. When you seem to be “down on your luck”, take a moment to ask God to make something pleasing to Him come of it—and then stop digging, look around and see how you got yourself into this hole. Stop blaming others for things that are your fault—and don’t go for the fatalistic cop-out of “I just have such bad luck!”
When it is some sort of cause-and-effect thing—where there is a valid reason that one thing would bring another—don’t call it luck. Walking under a ladder isn’t bad luck, but it may be a safety hazard, since a slight bump could send the ladder tumbling, and the bundle of shingles could land on you. Most of this category is all nonsense–superstitions and old wives tales. Often it would have to be enforced by some supernatural, but non-God and arbitrary entity. What natural properties of a black cat would bring unhappy circumstances to anyone walking perpendicular to it?

So, luck has no place, but it is often more handy to wish someone luck, than to affirm your feelings that because you care about them, you would be happier if the random, stochastic, un-calculable, complex processes would effect the outcomes of the events in question in a way that was beneficial to them.

On that note, I’m going to bed. I pray that God would give you true, lasting joy.

Snow!

Sunday, January 21st, 2007

So, Saturday afternoon I saw all this snow, so I figured I should do something with it. It was too powdery to make a snowman, but ah! I had some buckets in my closet! So I packed them full and it stuck together enough to make a sand castle. I also had an extra collender I had found, so I made some half-spheres as well. Some kids came by, and they may have helped if they had had gloves or something.
Falling off the swingset was fun too. Into the 8 inches of snow. Playing in the snow was a nice break from working on servo motor controlers. Do you want the PID controller to get feedback from the speed or the velocity? How do you make it smooth if position at a time is what is critical, but velocity is all you can change? Do I need cascading PID controlers?
By Sunday, my 75 gallon pyramid has fallen over.

This after noon I went and played frisbee in the snow with some people from church. It was slippery, so starting and stopping were inhibited, but diving was great! No sand burrs, just snow. When we won, we built a snow fort, and had a laidback snowball fight. The sun started peaking around the clouds, bathing everything in a blue glow, and then came out in full brilliant color, suddenly making the world have texture and depth.
There were two Audis and my car there that had four-wheel drive, and we had a big, open field with 8 inches of snow on it. We drove around in circles, sliding sideways, spinning our wheels as we turned. It turns out that you do turn left to go right. The snow fort dissappeared into the powdery blanket. My awesome-cool Mazda seemed (to me at least) comparable to the Audis. It did have it’s weakness: snow and wet makes the alternator belt sqeak at low rpm.

I came home and found that my partly-fallen snow castles had been rebuilt into one, and a couple other building had been constructed using the same methods. It’s not like making packed-snow blocks is non-obvious, but I may have been an inspiration to others…

After a prayer and praise meeting, we bundled up and went sledding on an overpass-created hill–one of the best ones in Kansas! I didn’t have any sled, so I borrowed from others, and found scraps of broken items used by earlier sledders. The best things I used (in my opinion) were some shards of Formicia, 18″-24″ wide and 6″-8″ wide. I would sit on the larger irregularly -shaped, sharp-edge piece, and put my heels on the smaller one, and then zip down the hill at lightning speed. At the bottom, I would simply tumble until I stopped to keep from falling in the ditch or hitting the manhole cover. I then would dust off my bruises, and tap-dance to the top of the hill and try again. The bottom of the hill was strewn with pieces of plastic and other sharp items, artifacts of other sledders who came with tubs and sleds, and left with shattered hopes.

It was a very snow-filled weekend, and I am slightly sore, especially where my bones are close to my skin.

Boxed Set

Friday, December 8th, 2006

So, I went to the SStore, and got me some stuff. Found several dozen 8 foot rods that looked like 3/8″ rebar but was much lighter. Turns out they are carbon fiber, coated with epoxy mixed with sand. Not sure what they are for. I also got a crate:

Mr. Cecil doesn’t like that. The guys at the SStore were rather dubious.

You may wonder why I got it. The reason is scrawled in the upper left of this picture. You can also see where it came from:

I took it apart, put it back on my car, took it to church and turned it into parts of Bethlehem. Here’s a shot of me untying it at church. Only one side of the car was visibility challenged: